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ok so as i write this i am listening to lucy by skillet and i couldn't help but think about myself and my life. My mom made me start birthcontrol shots.  i was on a bunch of medican for a really bad ear infection and so my bc shot wasn't working anymore and i couldn't get another one untill december 27 but i think that over the time that i wasn't on it (the medican cancled it out) i think that i got pregnant i don't know why i thought this but i did i had this feeling, this glow about me i guess you could say and i was kinda hoping that i was but then my mom forced me to get the next shot and i didn't have enough time to take a pregnancy test because she made me go with out haing a warning and now i keep thinking about how if i was pregnant and got the shot that kills the baby! and to me that seems like murder. I think about it every day i mean i'm only 17 and all but i wanted a baby i mean i don't just want a baby but if something were to happen and i did have a baby i wuld deff. keep it and it would be the best thing in my life but i guess what i really want to know is, is it murder? did i (maybe) kill an unborn child? i just wish i could have known if i was or not!

-the soon to be Mrs.dillow